First of A Thousand Years

11.August.2020

Happy 1st anniversary my love. ❤

Hi love. Pasensya ka na. Sobrang unprepared and random lang nito. But still, gusto ko mag-attempt (at the very least😂) na bigyan ka ng something to remember on this very special day.

First, gusto ko mag-apologize na I have nothing to give you today. I tried actually. I planned something weeks ago pa. Pero things didn't go as planned. So ayun, waley ganap. Sadly, mahirap talaga kapag distance, time and money ang kalaban. 😂 Kaya naman, all the more na gusto kong bumawi kapag nakasama na kita. Something to look forward to. 💖

I want to make this letter as real and honest, as heartfelt and sincere as possible. Walang masyadong maaarteng words, mabubulaklak na salita. 😂 Just a simple but genuine message to the one I truly love. 💋

Kasi baby, andami ko talagang gustong ipagpasalamat sayo. Yung gratitude ko sayo, nag uumapaw. Kahit anong thank you ko sa mga messages ko sayo, hindi lahat ng bagay na thankful ako for you nacocover. Andami pa rin namimiss out. If I can convert my "Thank you's" into hugs, inseparable na tayo. 😂 Kasi hindi na ako matitinag sa yakap ko sayo. 😆

Thank you love,
for being patient with me. I have been to a lot of shit before and I know I'm not easy.

Thank you love,
for staying with me. No matter how many times I push you away. 😔

Thank you love,
for always trying to win my heart each and every single day.
Pinapakilig mo ako araw-araw. You always make my heart flutter. 💖

Thank you love,
for not making promises. Instead, you let your actions do the talking. 💋 I really appreciate all your effort, love.

Thank you love,
for loving me faithfully and sincerely. I may have doubt your love for me multiple times pero trust me, I always believe deep in my heart that you love me. Kasi you really make me feel that you do. ❤ At yun lagi yung pinanghahawakan ko. No words needed. Yung heart ko mismo, kinakausap ng heart mo. And I think that's more than enough.

Thank you for everything my love.
Thank you for making my days brighter than ever, for making my nights more peaceful, and for making my life worth living.

Ilan pa lang yan sa reasons why I'm so thankful to God for having you in my life. 💚

I know, our first year was not easy.
The distance makes it even harder. There are days na feeling ko sobrang unbearable. May mga misunderstandings that make me feel like I wanted to give up.

Pero thank you love, for holding on to me. Thank you for always believing in our love.

I'm sorry for a lot things.
I'm sorry for the times I have caused you pain.
I'm sorry for the days and nights I have made you cry.
I'm sorry for making you feel like you are not worthy, like you are so much easy to give up on.
Pero trust me when I tell you na hindi yan totoo.

You are worthy. You are loved. You are treasured.
I will never give up on you. Never. Ever.

I am sorry
for not always being able to understand you,
for not trying to understand your reasons,
for not trusting in our love the same way you do.

I am sorry love, I am not perfect. I am far from being perfect.

Our relationship is not perfect. Both of us are not.
But I know, that our love is.

My love for you is perfect.
Know why? Kasi it's true. It's 100% genuine.
And at this point in my life, I am sure, that I want to love you so perfectly.

I love you with all of me.
I love you with all my heart and soul, with all my flaws and imperfections, with all that I have and all that I am.

Baby, I am really really sorry for the things I did and said that hurt you and caused you pain. 😭 To hurt you is the last thing I want to do. Pero maraming beses na kitang nasaktan. I failed you many times. And I want you to know that I regret every bit of it.

I want to spend the rest of my lifetime with you, baby.
I want to see your beautiful smiles every waking day.
I want to feel your warm embrace before going to sleep.
I want to wipe away your tears (of happiness,most of the time).
I want to kiss and kiss and kiss your worries and stress away.
I want to give you massage every time pagud ikaw.
I want to give you front hugs, back hugs and side hugs every time you need one.
I want to kiss (and lick) your shoulder blades and batok habang busy ka magnetflix. 😂 Ang harot!
I want to make your nights as special and romantic (and maaksyon) as you want them to be. 😆 Haha!
I want to argue with you a little on what to decorate to every room in our home.
I want to whisper how sexy and gorgeous you look on your oversized white shirts.
I want you to taste all my cooking inventions. 😂
I want you to get used to having some "tutong" meals. 😂
I want to hear you sing songs to our beautiful baby.
I want to hear my little jinjin call you "Mommy".
I want to live a happy and contented family life with you,
Jeanette Bernal. ❤

I want to dream with you every day and every night.
And I want us to make our every dream a reality, together.

💙💙💙

I want to spend forever with you baby.

This is only our first of many years together. 💚
I LOVE YOU AND I WILL CONTINUE LOVING YOU,
ALWAYS AND FOREVER.

Patiently waiting for you to come home,

YOUR WIFE. 😂